Doing the entire Edinburgh organising on my own has taken its toll a bit today.
The last time I did the show proper (excluding the aborted Laughing Horse) was a month ago in the same room as tonight, and it went well, I had a fair bit of work to do on it but the progress was definitely there.
In this last month, however, I’ve been so tied up with money/flyers/posters/press releases and the myriad of other little things that seem to take up so much time means that I’ve slightly let slip the most important thing about doing a show in Edinburgh – the show itself.
Tonight was still a relatively good performance, the small (but probably double the average audience for next month) crowd certainly enjoyed it. But the same problems were there as before and that I should have ironed out by now. And a few of the same lines that I mentally crossed out after the last preview have managed to creep their way back in.
I’ve also not been using a script as such, just pages of notes. And in the last month of leaving them in a pile, I’m slightly confused as to what the most up to date version is. Meaning that tonight I really got the feeling that I was performing things that I’d completely rewritten.
I am, as ever, being too harsh on myself. the show was good…but, as ever, I want it to be better.
And it can be better.
And it will be.
One more preview left, in Cardiff.
Double gulp gulp